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“Mama, why do they call coriander cilantro?”

“We call it that too, sometimes.”

“No, it’s Chinese parsley.”

“That sounds like medicine!”

“Only if you get your medicines from the Hakim.”

“Those are witch-doctors, but Ayurveda is a real science.”

“India never even had witches. Hakims are just herbalists.”

“Something has to give: 
     tourists spend exorbitantly for those homeopathic sugar-pills.”

“Whatever you say, but none of that stuff lead to fMRIs.”

“Maybe it did. Even if they don’t publish about it, allopathists still eat it!”

“You know that coriander is actually medicinal right? 
     There’s empirical evidence.”

“Yes. Grandmother used to put kothimbeer on swellings,
     and they went down right away.”
    “Is that coriander? The guy at the bodega calls it dhaniya.”

“Google says they’re both Hindi; just like English has two words for it.”

“And it’s not a bodega. He’s a street vendor.”

“Sabzi-wallahs can be street vendors or not—”

“Mine comes over if I text him; beats the queues at Reliance FreshMart.”

“—Thela is what we call it. Yes, and it’s healthier, straight from the farm.”

“That’s a cart. A street-cart.”

“Well, it’s not exactly a cart…”

Evergreen Creepers

New creeps up,

Behind your ears,

Over you shoulder.

You will hear yourself-

In someone else's voice.

Smile, with a pained heart:

Pending disapproval,

And the elusive, 

skating-rink which is acceptance. 

When new creeps up:

Love yourself like you never could.

Who else is there to love? 

The time of hope and butterflies

Has flown too far away, 

Just like you have.

Horizons are just lines today, 

They are not borders that represent:

Fresh starts from withered heights, 

Where life continues, stubbornly on. 

Yet, when new creeps up, 

You too should be onwards. 

Pointed ahead, heedless of the fact that 

Change never tells you:

That it's the person standing right behind you, 

In every forsaken supermarket line.

Yes, 

Old friends are old questions.

Or, suddenly in your hand

Metal is a savior

From empty conversation; 

In rooms that are portraits of

Nostalgia, not truth. 

New creeps up

and asks difficult questions:

Maybe I'm really a cat person

Maybe I never was in love 

I don't know if I'll ever be?

There are no answers. For:

When it innocuously knocks, 

You will find out:

Lovers are worn concepts,

Carpets, who see too much footfall.

Cats are transient multitudes 

Of lives plagued with

Ifs and buts. 

New creeps up: 
It saunters over, to help you realize

That home lies 
in two or many places.

Your heart's somewhere in between the

Polar forces

of familiarity. 

The forces that take form in all those

Invisible waves and teleported voices,

They seem to repel

All the warm bodies with foreign accents, 

Who home vitality in their strange cadence.

Yes:

Gravity is meaningless, 

when new discreetly arrives.

New creeps up, and

There are no easy decisions.

Time won't stand still,

Not even for me

(Not even in a daylight-saving land).

But as a cold, shrewd, kindred soul once said:

Regardless of which (equally) fatigued path you tread, 

Tomorrow is always a new day. And

Every uncaged bird will tell you that there is

Agony in bearing an untold story. 

Let me say:

There is nothing more excruciating 

Than conceiving an unlived life. 

So be polite and greet her, 

when new creeps up. 

Speechless

Watchful, as a hawk above a golden field, 

I see myself in your arms. 

It is a dream I cannot shake, 

A thought that once could have passed; 

But now has settled, 

For the long stay. 

Frost-- the world has ended in ice today:

Yes, and your bitter cold is silent. 

Frozen words are sharp stalactites, 

Unseen, they still pierce the heart. 

Yet, I ask: who ever arrived 

that did not depart?

Let us be on our way, and

gone. 

Dinner with the only Greek Puritan

Dear, dear boy: 

Come on over. 

Sit down. 

Have a drink?

12 years aged, 

It’s not the only icy beast 

In this warm, warm room. 

Here, I like silk ties; 

You’re wearing a sweater, 

Your jacket is leather, 

The clothes aren’t striped, 

But your forehead is furrowed. 

It’s my mistake, 

Really—

I made you up more than I listened. 

A man’s locution in a boy’s voice, 

Bellbottoms hugged your fecund thighs. 

How was I to know that I 

would be nervous?

That it would not be me, sitting there? 

No, no, not I, but the meager

shadow 

(of lucky, lucky me)

across the table from you?
Tomorrow's headlines won't read:

"Anxious artist meets her creation.”

It’s a wonder, but

despite it all, 

I'm almost head-over-heels.

That--
Or I’m just dizzy from all the walking.

With you, I will: loiter and amble--

greengrass-over-hill. 

But only 

If you bring:

The polka-dotted scarf, 

The bauble-lipped snicker, 

Your eyes’ lascivious glimmer--  

Indeed, my faith did flicker:

Be true- was this our very own last supper?

Are you the apostle holding the knife?
And am I rich with unspent coin?
Or was it never supper at all:
Did we merely consume a most ordinary dinner,
Of strange sustenance that only made us thinner?
(Were you also cursed with fanciful expectations?)

Really— 

Who could ever know? 

I, for one, never knew-
To me, you
were (presently, or perhaps never?)
The ironic fertilizer of my fields:
A hardworking mule, my favorite muse--
Always busy, inciting all the words.
Good! In fair exchange,
I offer you-
Reap my succulence, this sweet fruit:
My (catalyzed) literacy. 

To be sure, it inevitably is
the way of men and Gods:
To come and go.
The fairer ones:
We linger and kiss,
Virtuous, just, until--
The only dilemma is posed.

Alas! 

You are not an easy problem to solve.
But really—
Who could ever have known?

My good sir, please tell me:

Where is Aphrodite when you need her?

Oh! 

We both know:
I am no king of Cyprus.

But be my Galatea and bear me Paphos?

(Secretly, I’ll admit I’m concerned more with the process

than creation.)
Jesus!

Let me not fawn over a deafeningly silent rock!

I console, love with my soul, I understand,

(Lesser, I am consoled, loved and understood.) 

But you’re the oddest oddity, and--

I have quite the collection.

The City that Slept with Me

New York, 

You’ve grown on me.

Like an unruly vine grows on the

wrought-iron gates

of some distinct Bronxville home. 

I promised not to be loved.

After all my sordid love affairs

I promised not to be loved,

But to only love instead. 

You broke my bitter promise, 

And you kept it, all at once-

You’ve loved me like a mother 

Who gives her naked body 

To sustenance. 

Yes, 

New York. 

You've made an unreliably honest 

woman out of me. 

Your winding suburban streets

Have wound themselves right into my heart

And the bursts of air from your city subway vents

Have filled the many crevices of my brain 

And made me a feather-light babe

In love. 

I have parted with my heart, 

On several of your streets and intersections.

And given many a cavernous kiss, 

On your numerous rooftop bars.

And, I too have marveled 

at the droves of your electric stars 

As I joined them in a fast-walking-city heaven; 

Like everyone, with googlemaps open. 

Your labyrinth of expository village walks

Have worked me into a sweating, heaving mess.

And I’ve felt the tingles when 

Your crowded subways thrust 

Nostalgic smells like Old Spice

upon me. 

Indeed, even the bee-line buses’ warm heaters,

Have made me moan in delight 

On not just one, 

But many a frigid evening. 

But no, 

I won't say I'm in love. 

For you have patiently taught me that 

There are dangers in no-filter.

And in forgetting that people are kindred strangers.

But still:

I knew the stubborn truth last night, 

When the sight of your skyline brought a smile

To the very edge of my ears.

I'm only a brief visitor to the intricacies of love, 

Just like every other 
museum perusing
not-quite New Yorker.

But I do see the overwhelming substance of it:

Just like every other 

overspent adventurer

and transitional passenger. 

And, it inspires me to know:

I once left home for ye*, New York. 

But today, I'm coming home to you. 

_____________________

*Until familiarity provides such liberties,

An enclave, as it is, shouldn’t be singular.

Gandalf, who is dearly missed.

The air is a little heavier today, 
happier too
With you afloat in it somewhere
What we needed must have been given:
Mother always sung me to sleep, 
“Don’t you worry, my darling child, 
Providence has a heart of gold;
Now, now, don’t cry.”

But little girls grow in strange ways.
They learn to hate the silly things like
The sweet smell of sweat, and
The buttery soft grease of their scalps,
The bruises of childhood that 
Scream of trees climbed and glass doors broken, 
Of dogs outrun, brothers overtaken...
And the slightest of sometimes: 
Of learning that love can be angry, 
And very, very real. 

We grow in strange ways, 
But find hope in all the usual suspects:
And you know that you were one of them. 
I've held your hand and felt your peace, 
And let it dance me to the rooms of joy:
And given you thanks by questioning my motivations. 
(At Christmas time, you were the man 
who asked your grandchildren to gift you 
their favorite candy.) 

Yes:
The air is a little heavier today. 
But, it’s happier too,
With you afloat in it somewhere. 
You will waft into 
All the long white beards, 
And soft, deliberate voices; 
All the electric rooms, 
And chocolate covered almonds
That I will one day see again
Many, many times. 

And when you do come,
Adrift on the zephyr of a sunny morning, 
Just to whisper in my ears
Your precious, precious words 
of encouragement: 
I should hope to let you know that 
I did grow-
I comfortably filled:
The shade of my brown 
The way my lips are sort of dark
And the quiet place that truly holds my heart,
The majestically mundane solace of 
Acceptance. 

A place that could never be but named 
After you. 

Speak

It’s a long day when 

the cold persists

and a cold persists 

and there isn’t anyone to 

talk with.

Green dots are grey.
Green dots lie to my face.

Remote controls

and faces afar: people I know 

so well… 

With bodies I’ll never touch

And stories that are trapped

In electricity. 

But at least they 

talk. 

They are connected

I’ll never be afraid to cry to them.
When I laugh I'm not scared to
Show them all my teeth. 

Long days which 

Descend 

Crawling

Into 

Long nights. 

They’ll ease into mornings. 

You’ll see the light. 

Bright, warm days are ahead 

Spring doesn’t know how to wait. 

It’s everywhere, springing

Quick. 

Unpredictable. 

And then

When I want to talk 

I will have flowers to talk to 

And birds to sing me to sleep.
For

Although I know
That

Screens talk,

They do not speak.